What does it mean to be an Army Wife?

normal isn't a word that applies anymore I don't know how to gently lead up to something like this, so i'm just going to say it. people are trying to understand why something so terrible could have happened. the mind play tricks on us at times like this. it has to. we need it to. its how we are able to power on and do what needs to be done. even something as mundane as doing the dishes that are piling up in the sink, or going out getting up and doing what needs to be done for your loved ones. the further doesn't stop. we all searched for strength that first day or two. i did. but whether what i found was true strength or just some part of your dna that makes us want to reach out and help. i don't know. times like this we question our own stregth our ability to hang on and not crumble. its one of the things i admire most about the army wives i've met. it must be a military thing. this capacity to press on despite the obstacles to see a mission through to its completion. no matter what happens that makes us question the world we live in life goes on. as cliche as that sounds. one generation passes the baton onto the next generation and the cycle of life continues. this is a communal spirit, this crazy insistence that we all really are connected and each others care taker, it keeps us from sinking into despair or sliding into the abyss. what is it about the human touch? holding a loved one close and feeling their warmth, their heartbeat? i mean this is the army and frequently our loved ones are away but their warmth doesn't have to be. at times it feels totally random. this roll of the dice on who lives and who dies. they say in times of crisis true character is revealed. at some point words fail us and we are left with silence, silence and time. "to live in hearts you leave behind is not to die." i don't know what each of you is going to do today, but now is the time to tell those you love that you love them.

a good friend of mine wrote this to me:

people who have it easy and just go through and do the time, then its over. those aren't the people who live the army life. people who are dedicated, who go through the hard times, people who are affected by everything that comes with it all and perseveres, those are the honorable ones. army strong right?

it doesn't matter where or how it happens. the result is the same. the process is the same. don't let peoples attitudes or actions make you feel undeserving. this happens to other soldiers. there is so much that comes with being in the military. it doesn't end when or go away when you come home. it follows you everywhere. that is what makes you an army wife. you live it everyday, you support everyday. not just deployed "support your troops" bullshit that people don't fully understand.


Back to me:

i can't say that i'm perfect. but i am an army wife. i am strong and i push through everything, though troubles may come they will all work themselves out. there is no rhyme or reason to understand why i went through everything this year, losing our baby, and now david being in the hospital. apparently God thinks that i can handle it all. hopefully we will all make it out stronger and happier people. i love david with all my heart, and in my heart and mind we are going to be together forever. we made a commitment to each other on October 22, 2010. that we would love, honor and cherish each other. take care of each other in sickness and in health. we are one. when we married in the sanctity in front of God and all of our family members we made a commitment to persevere through everything. we made a vow to honor 1 Cor. 13. david and i are best friends. nothing will change that.