For Better, For Worse...

i love my husband, yeah sometimes he drives me crazy but i signed on as an army wife, for better or for worse.

i think at some point in our lives we think things like this could happen, we don't plan for it, we don't wish for it. we certainly pray that it does not happen to us or any other family, but it does. unfortunately whether it be in theater/deployment, or at our homes, or even during training. military wives are generally good at expecting the un expected, but when it comes to our spouse being injured, either our survival instincts kick in or we freak out. lol.

this past week has definitely been a trial on my marriage to David, and its just beginning. i don't know what the future holds for us, but i know that i love that man now, more than ever in my life. today i told him, that he was the best thing that had ever happened to me, and that no matter what happened before, that was before and we are starting a new chapter in our lives. we are starting over. i think this whole experience will make our relationship much stronger not just between us, but Christ as well. i know that I've been praying like crazy, and that all the christian influences around us has really helped as well. i honestly think God is working a miracle in my husband.

There are sometimes where i just want to give up and be done, but then i walk back to his room and hold his hand, and look into his eyes, and say, this is the man i am fighting for, and will continue to fight for, no matter what, because we are going to make it through this. i mean it would be nice to go home, and have this attractive man laying in my bed, to cuddle, talk about our days, and kiss whenever i want to, and everything else. I miss his voice, he's laugh, the way his lips feel against mine. that's what keeps me going. eventually i will feel and hear those all one day, its going to take time. i know im not the most patient person in the world, and if it were up to me, my husband would be back to normal and jumping around his room. Its a patience thing, a waiting game.

Today i got a tattoo to remind me that "Love Don't Run". i made a commitment to my husband in love that i would be there for him, for better, or for worse.