and the greatest of things is LOVE.

so yesterday i was going to post a blog, but i fell asleep. lol.

interesting things happened yesterday and today. lets start with my favorite event that happened yesterday, i had asked david many times to give me a thumbs up sign, i don't know if he can't do it, or if he physically doesn't want to do it. i asked him over and over, give me a thumbs up. he wouldn't do it, so then i asked him to flip me off. so he did it. then i asked him to do it again, and he did it again. never have i been so proud of my husband. i was so excited i said, "that's my man!" :) i also tried to have him communicate with me using his eyes, and blinking, but i don't think that worked very well. we did thumb wrestle a little bit yesterday. :)

today, i was cleaning his head and his ears and his nose, and i was looking at him and he started rubbing my head and playing with my hair. :) he also started exploring things with his hands. :) i had to get him some tennis balls and foam balls for him to play with in his hands. :) he's doing so great and recovering well. :)

what a day

this morning i woke up to find out that david had a mass in his chest which equals to pneumonia. he had been running a fever for almost a week now, it ranges anywhere from 101-103. it took the doctors a while to do a chest xray, even though he's been coughing up huge luges. so gross by the way. . . i was super frustrated with the doctors because this could have been prevented, i know that he is fighting a lot of other things right now, but he did not need this. with the head trauma, and everything the poor guy did not need to be sick as well.

i went in there a couple times tonight and he was not very responsive, but he is getting some much needed rest thank goodness. last night he was really agitated, and would not go to sleep. but tonight he is out like a light. :) we will see what tomorrow brings, i know the doctors have him on antibiotics to help with the infections, so hopefully he'll be feeling a lot better tomorrow! :)

love concurs all :)

what a day.

what a day.

i'm so glad i got my tattoo yesterday! its a great reminder. :)

anyways, so i just came back from seeing david, and he is pretty much the same old david, stubborn as can be! lol. i sat with him for about 2 hours. he knew i was there, he was looking at me when i talked. he was squeezing my hand, ALSO! he was trying to take off my glove off my hand because it irritates him. as soon as he could feel my skin touching his, he grabbed the glove and tried to pull it off! :) silly goofball! i told him to please stop trying to take my glove off, and guess what he stopped! but then he started doing it again. lol. stubborn ass.

tonight once again, i reminded him how much i love him, and how precious he was to me, and that i don't regret marrying him and that it was the smartest thing i have ever done in my life and how happy i am to have him as a husband. he's my best friend. the love of my life. my everything. he responded by holding my hand really tight and rubbing the back of my hand with his thumb and looking at me. i melted, looking into his eyes and seeing him, and his soul, just made the love i had for him overflow.

its amazing how much i love my husband. i know i had my days that i was a horrible wife, and we fought, but we always made it through. he continued to fight for me, i will continue to fight for him. i love him, and have since the first time he admitted he loved me. i told him i thought he was super hot from the first day i saw him. i think its so awesome that he knew after a MONTH of dating me that he was going to marry me. me on the other hand, i wasn't so sure. lol. on July 31, 2010 he proposed to me! :) on October 22, 2010 we took another step into our future that will carry us into forever, we became husband and wife, and dedicated our lives together through love and commitment. :) i can't see myself married to anybody else, we both have too weird of personalities to be with anybody else! lol.

he's an amazing person, as i told him tonight, i hated the person i used to be, and that he by love changed me into the person i am today. i never thought that i could be a good person, nor did i ever think that someone would love me as much as he does.




<3 LOVE CONCURS ALL THINGS!!! <3

For Better, For Worse...

i love my husband, yeah sometimes he drives me crazy but i signed on as an army wife, for better or for worse.

i think at some point in our lives we think things like this could happen, we don't plan for it, we don't wish for it. we certainly pray that it does not happen to us or any other family, but it does. unfortunately whether it be in theater/deployment, or at our homes, or even during training. military wives are generally good at expecting the un expected, but when it comes to our spouse being injured, either our survival instincts kick in or we freak out. lol.

this past week has definitely been a trial on my marriage to David, and its just beginning. i don't know what the future holds for us, but i know that i love that man now, more than ever in my life. today i told him, that he was the best thing that had ever happened to me, and that no matter what happened before, that was before and we are starting a new chapter in our lives. we are starting over. i think this whole experience will make our relationship much stronger not just between us, but Christ as well. i know that I've been praying like crazy, and that all the christian influences around us has really helped as well. i honestly think God is working a miracle in my husband.

There are sometimes where i just want to give up and be done, but then i walk back to his room and hold his hand, and look into his eyes, and say, this is the man i am fighting for, and will continue to fight for, no matter what, because we are going to make it through this. i mean it would be nice to go home, and have this attractive man laying in my bed, to cuddle, talk about our days, and kiss whenever i want to, and everything else. I miss his voice, he's laugh, the way his lips feel against mine. that's what keeps me going. eventually i will feel and hear those all one day, its going to take time. i know im not the most patient person in the world, and if it were up to me, my husband would be back to normal and jumping around his room. Its a patience thing, a waiting game.

Today i got a tattoo to remind me that "Love Don't Run". i made a commitment to my husband in love that i would be there for him, for better, or for worse.

David's Progress, A Sign of God's Presence

On monday night david was admitted to the hospital with a traumatic brain injury. the doctors said that when he came in, he was trying to rip things out with his left hand, and moving his hand and arm with a purpose. once out of surgery he was moving his left arm/hand and squeezing people's hands. he was on a ventilator to help him breathe, he could also hear peoples voices. this went on till tuesday/wednesday. the next day he had started moving his toes, on the left side, and started fluttering his right eye as if he was trying to open it. he was also starting to move his right index finger, and squeeze his right hand. he also started moving his right leg a little bit. he was later removed off the ventilator, he still has a breathing tube in to keep his throat from collapsing, but he is breathing on his own. he now is opening his eye more frequently, he's trying to open his left eye, and he tried moving his lips and moves his tongue, and sometimes makes a grunting noise. also today, he recognized me, so every time i tried to leave or move to the other side of the room he was freak out, and move his left arm around to grab my hand again. he also was exploring my hand, and he would squeeze it when i told him that he was holding my hand. his squeezes were hard and with a purpose. made me happy! :) so he's improving a lot!

Keep those prayers coming, because they are working!

Love Don't Run

"Love Don't Run"
By Steve Holy

This is gonna hurt, this is gonna hurt like hell
This is gonna damn near kill me, sometimes the truth aint easy
I know that you’re scared of telling me something
I don’t wanna hear, but baby believe that
I’m not leaving, you couldn’t give me one good reason

[Chorus:]
Love don’t run, love don’t hide
It won't turn away or back down from a fight
Baby I’m right here and I aint going anywhere
Love’s too tough it wont give up no not on us
Baby Love don’t run

Let’s lay it on the line, I don’t care if it takes all night cuz
This is gonna makes us stronger, it’s gonna make forever longer
I know it’d be easier walking away but what we got is real
And I wanna save us, baby we can do it, Baby we’ll get through it cause

Love don’t run, love don’t hide
It won't turn away or back down from a fight
Baby I’m right here and I aint going anywhere
Love’s too tough, it wont give up no not on us
Baby Love don’t run
Baby love don’t run

[Bridge:]
So come over here and lay down in my arms
Baby tell me everything that’s on your heart, cause

[Chorus:]
I won’t run, and I won’t hide
I won’t turn away, I just wanna make things right
Baby I’m right here and I aint going anywhere
Love’s too tough it won’t give up no not on us
Baby Love don’t run
Baby Love don’t run



My new theme song.
i think some parts of the song are fitting for my situation. its going to be a marathon for david to get better, its going to be day, weeks, months, possibly even years. but i'm willing to makes those steps with him as long as he keeps fighting. :) he's fighting so hard right now, and i'll be there every step of the way until he's back home, safe and sound in my arms. :) i can't wait to hold him, and kiss his beautiful lips, and hear him talk again. :) he's trying so hard to get better. he's a fighter. i know we will make it, and make beautiful babies, and have a life of happily ever after together, the story may not be perfect, but it works for me as long and he's by my side. :)

Something Someone Wrote to David

Heavenly Father,I asked you now to bless David in the name of Jesus.In healing his body to become healthy.Embrace his family and friends in comfort and peace knowing you are almighty and continually seeking you in prayer, knowing all things are possible with Jesus"My peace I give you."Stay strong in God's word, when we ask anything in Jesus name it is well done with Him. Keep the faith.God has dispacted His angels around David and his protection is with him at all times.Trust in the Lord with all thine heart,and lean not unto thine own understanding,but in all thy ways acknowledge Him and he will direct our path.